Thursday, 6 December 2012

Any Minute now !

Highs and Lows..

The Last few weeks, have been a roller coaster ride for me, I have had some amazing highs and a few weeks ago, a proper crappy low... 

I will admit, I Had a good two days of having a pity party for myself and thinking, 'I was going to leave it a while before praying that prayer 'break my heart for what break yours' as I felt broken enough for a few days.

It was in these few days God really showed me something, First of all, How great God's Church is.

Seriously my church stepped right up and became a needed rock for me , with prayers and love being thrown all over me. I felt supported big time.

Also God taught me alot about my perception of Grace and how still after all this time, I can still try and put levels of grace and the people involved into boxes.

The Scripture of 'My Grace is sufficient for you' became alot more real, when I got to see the pain and hurt of sin, proper up close, but also to see the cage that the sinner was in, and that there really is no difference in his Love and Grace , Its all a one size fits all, Grace.. 

Looking form the other side I can see how God is a great recycler and now feel ready to pray that prayer again.

I know I didn't even feel a fraction of what he feels, when it comes to his heart being broken, which just blows my mind, that that's how much he loves me.

So here I go again, saying let me see what you see, and dare i say it, Feel what you feel.

Truly He taught us to love one another,
His law is love and His gospel is peace.
Chains he shall break, for the slave is our brother.
And in his name all oppression shall cease.- o Holy Night


Wednesday, 24 October 2012

Adrenaline into your soul...

'Study how he did it. Because he never lost sight of where he was headed—that exhilarating finish in and with God—he could put up with anything along the way: Cross, shame, whatever. And now he’s there, in the place of honor, right alongside God. When you find yourselves flagging in your faith, go over that story again, item by item, that long litany of hostility he plowed through. That will shoot adrenaline into your souls!' -Hebrews 12:2-4

Monday, 22 October 2012


"I will love them freely." — Hosea 14:4

This sentence is a body of divinity in miniature. He who understands its meaning is a theologian, and he who can dive into its fullness is a true master in Israel. It is a condensation of the glorious message of salvation which was delivered to us in Christ Jesus our Redeemer. The sense hinges upon the word “freely.”
 This is the glorious, the suitable, the divine way by which love streams from heaven to earth, a spontaneous love flowing forth to those who neither deserved it, purchased it, nor sought after it. It is, indeed, the only way in which God can love such as we are.
 The text is a death‐blow to all sorts of fitness: “I will love them freely.” Now, if there were any fitness necessary in us, then He would not love us freely, at least, this would be a mitigation and a drawback to the freeness of it. But it stands, “I will love you freely.”

We complain, “Lord, my heart is so hard.” “I will love you freely.” “But I do not feel my need of Christ as I could wish.” “I will not love you because you feel your need; I will love you freely.” “But I do not feel that softening of spirit which I could desire.” Remember, the softening of spirit is not a condition, for there are no conditions; the covenant of grace has no conditionality whatever; so that we without any fitness may venture upon the promise of God which was made to us in Christ Jesus, when He said, “He that believeth on him is not condemned.”

 It is blessed to know that the grace of God is free to us at all times, without preparation, without fitness, without money, and without price!

 “I will love them freely.”