I will admit, I Had a good two days of having a pity party for myself and thinking, 'I was going to leave it a while before praying that prayer 'break my heart for what break yours' as I felt broken enough for a few days.
It was in these few days God really showed me something, First of all, How great God's Church is.
Seriously my church stepped right up and became a needed rock for me , with prayers and love being thrown all over me. I felt supported big time.
Also God taught me alot about my perception of Grace and how still after all this time, I can still try and put levels of grace and the people involved into boxes.
The Scripture of 'My Grace is sufficient for you' became alot more real, when I got to see the pain and hurt of sin, proper up close, but also to see the cage that the sinner was in, and that there really is no difference in his Love and Grace , Its all a one size fits all, Grace..
Looking form the other side I can see how God is a great recycler and now feel ready to pray that prayer again.
I know I didn't even feel a fraction of what he feels, when it comes to his heart being broken, which just blows my mind, that that's how much he loves me.
So here I go again, saying let me see what you see, and dare i say it, Feel what you feel.